My Vacation is Approved!

Its official, my 65 days vacation is approved!! Now the only problem is that sobrang dami kong naiisip na gawin at puntahan. I don’t even know if my budget will suffice all of the things that I want to accomplish.

So as a reminder I’m putting the list of things I want to achieve on my long overdue vacation here para at least baka kahit papano maacheive ko siya.

Vikings Buffet – just because everybody has been raving about it all over Pinas.

Baguio Craft Brewery – I need good some good quality beer!! And I haven’t been in baguio for a long time….

Manila – just because I miss the traffic, the malls and especially the food!!!!

Camarines Norte – to finally do the “meet the parents” and to see what Bicolandia has in store for me

Masbate – to Bring the whole family to my mom’s birth place so that I we can all spend some good old quality time

To write more and improve my blog - as of now all my views are coming from me checking it from time to time. Total no. of Visitors – O, nada, waley…. Hehehehe

Buy my mom a brand new oven.

Buy my papa anything he needs/wants with a specific budget. =)

Buy myself lots and lots of clothes and shoes that are in my budget range - Para naman may masuot ako.

Buy a car for my parents - Malay nyo diba? Hehehe

To spend more quality time with my pamankins

I still have a lot of things that I want to do and am planning to add more to the list but as of now this will be the essentials muna. Grabe, 3 years in the making itong bakasyon na ito so I do hope matuloy na siya. I have been so down this couple of months na kahit sobrang busy ko, I was not really in the right mindset at napaka nega ko na tlga, so going home to the place where I grew up is just want I need right now….. Thank you Lord for my answered prayer…… PINAS SEE YOU SOON!!!!

On being “PLUS SIZE”…..

Since I came to Dubai, I have this constant struggle on how I can manage to start losing weight. I was never the girl who accepted her femininity and curves. On the contrary I was the girl who hides in her uniform since I started gaining more weight. It’s crazy enough that even in my social media pictures, I was always wearing my trusty grey & white ensemble. I was constantly blaming any problems I encounter for making me do “stress eating”. Sure, I still have a happy exterior but that’s because I was born with an ironically smiling face. And honestly, based on what I’m experiencing now, even that façade’s slowly fading away. I am more likely to be irritated by simple misunderstandings. I now tend to look for problems so I have an excuse to eat out or binge. The energy that I once have to overcome all obstacles was replaced by guilty pleasures like a hefty dose of chicken wings and large amounts of soda. I don’t get full easily and even though I just ate, my mind is telling me that my body can still hold a couple more scoops of ice cream or a dash more cigarettes.

This kind of problem is now killing my self-esteem. I don’t have the same confidence that I had before in my younger years. I now hide behind the shadows of excuses and reasoning. I don’t have the “YOLO” (You Only Live Once) attitude. Instead, my brain is now consumed with planning on what I will be eating for dinner even though I just finished taking my breakfast.  I am now stuck in this uneasy feeling that I am just wasting my life and not even knowing what lies ahead. That kind of struggle that makes me just want to be at bed the whole day, and just wait for the next day so I can sleep some more.

The struggles of being overweight are sad but true, this constant hatred towards your body and not loving your behind for not being in tune with your front. My legs are so much thinner than a normal curvy girl thus, making my upper body so much heavier that I have trouble walking and the heavier I get, the more strain my ankles had to endure just so I can walk for at least a couples of steps. I wanted to invest on how to gain confidence but having no sense of style makes it harder to accept and embrace my curves. It might be easy for people to tell me to just go ahead and try to lose weight but having no will-power makes it a lot harder to gain faith.

I am writing this not because I want to start losing weight, but to document my journey on being “Plus Size”. I’m still in this bubble of hatred and self loathing. I don’t like how my body Is evolving and that my age is increasing year after year but by writing on how I go about it makes it worth for me to at least reconsider the possibilities of trying to change who I am and to look forward on what my futures lies ahead. 
  

Sisig + Egado x Great Co - Workers = BUSOG!!

This is just a fun blog about me and my co - workers. We always have this impromptu lunches na mag rerequest kaming mag luto ng either Egado from Lyn's flatmate (tawagin natin cyang KUYA) or Ren's famous SISIG!! 

Let me just tell you why this occurrences needs to be blogged. One good thing that i love about this lunches is that this becomes some sort of bonding moments para sa aming lahat. We take pictures of it, kwentuhan galore sa mga araw-araw na pangyayari sa office and most of all, GREAT FOOD!!!  We always pair them with Coke and rice, tapos some combination of fruits and panamis. I love this moments with my AGEL co-workers. Actually i really love all our lunch times together, kahit mabababaw lang na kwentuhan mas nagiging masaya because of great company. We laugh at each other, make fun of people (sa totoo lang ako naman ang pinag titripan at kinukutiya nila parati....hehehe....) talk about things that happen in the Philippines an so on. I can still remember when it is almost time for our salary, Kareen is the one who encodes our sahod so we have this kulitan of not making her galit or stressed lalo na if she has not finished encoding it yet. Or this non-ending battle between me and Jake that we have become so accustomed to, na pag hindi kami mag orkayan na dalawa the day would not be complete. I just Love this time of day that believe it or not, this actually is my booster and stress reliever.  

So enough about the pep talk na, let me share with you some of our office pics:

Kuya's Egado with carrots and patatas

Ren's famous Sisig ng Pampanga

Ren, Mylene and Jake

Jake and Kareen doing the Pabebe Wave!

Me and Madam Cecilia

The Pabebe Wave!!

Busog Lusog after lunch. Me, Jake and Lyn on the phone while Sir Bernard and Madam Cecilia are chatting. Kareen was so ready in taking her pose!! hehehe.....

THE MALAKING MATA MEME....

THEY WERE TRYING TO BE SCARY daw...... =)

The guy who is leaning is kuya Kenneth and the other holding a bottle of pepsi is Kuya Elmer, next to him is Shelly, while the girl who's face was not captured is Jen.

 

THE COORDINATORS... BAW!

Funny Pose daw sabi ni Jake.....

The day would not be complete without the PABALOT!!! Pinoy style =)

I Still have 3 more pinoy office-mates that are not here in the Picture, Kuya Jon (Who is actually the brains behind the meme of me having a big eye and the one who took these pics.) and Jen, andun sya isang pic actually kaso hindi nakita ung mukha. Sadly yung pantry kung saan kami kumakaain before was already demolished to give way to our new office. That panty had held a lot of Birthday parties, Biglaang pakain, awayan, tampuhan and my most memorable 30th Birthday party last 2014. I need to blog that even if it was 2 years ago para ma-preserve and ma share ko sya. So for now we are stationed dun sa bigger na pantry on the 1st floor pansamantala and will be going to our new pantry by the 2nd half of the year sabi ng management. Hopefully I can still share a lot more stories about us here sa blog..... so till next time............ BAS! 

On being single......

Ok so this topic has been on my head today for a couple of hours now, kaya what better way to remove it out of my memory than to put it in my blog….. =)

Well my younger cousin got married last June…. kaya drama galore ang lola nyo kasi nga naman, mas bata sa akin yung pinsan ko pero naunahan pa ako. So ang bagsak sa akin ay lunkot, hinagpis at pagdaramdam…. Charot!! pero honestly sobrang happy ako for both of them kasi kilala ko ung lalaki and he loves her so much and alam ko maalagaan nya ang aking insan ng mabuti.

Now ngayon naman syempre nainggit ako ng konti lang…. =) ganito kasi yun, since I was so called the black sheep of the family (literal din kasi ako lang morena sa aming mgpipinsan) expectations sa akin ng tao na ako mauunang mag asawa sa amin, pero dumating na ang panahong mawawala na ang edad ko sa kalendaryo pero single parin ako. Ang saklap diba.

I know a lot of people are telling me na wag mag isip ng kung anu-ano, I am currently in a relationship that is stable and happy, kulang nalang talaga sa amin kasal but still………

Hindi ko narin alam ang mafefeel ko kasi I know I am not in the position to settle down just yet (financially and emotionally), or maybe I am siguro I’m just in denial kc nga everybody is telling me that I am not getting younger daw, also there is this what they call biological clock and pasok na pasok ako sa banga!. Whatever this is I hope it will pass soon kasi I know who I want to marry, I just don’t want to get married only because it’s “uso” or because others are doing it, I want to get married because I know both of us are ready and hindi dahil napipilitan lang kaming pareho. 

Ok so that's it for now.....BAS!